11.1.2011

The beautifulness of todays date. Went to Puncak Alam dis morning for thesis research. Met the rest of my ex-classmate. Catch-up things. Everyone was doing fine except Mimi. She's having a real trouble with the hotel she do intern with. Pity her. My advisor lecturer debated with my company supervisor. I was stuck in the middle. Listening to the intense phone conversation. Im tired of being a people pleaser. I work 6 days a week,11hrs per day and not to mention my weekend assignment. Cant they tolerate of excusing me meeting my lecturer advisor once a week, half day leave to be exact?? Likewise today, im on leave but still first thing in the morning im settling dato's Citibank Visa & Mastercard prob and going thru Shashi business proposal. I contentedly carry my responsibility day & night but all i need is half day excuse for my research thesis. And this subject carry me 7 credit hour. I hope dato' could understand my situation. I think he would not :( Yes he is :) Heck no :( Argh like wutever :/ Im loving this job. I have the best clique ever. All the kakaks who always back me up whenever dato' is in the bad mood and all the abangs who always protect me like their own baby sister. And not to forget my bunch of fav boys, saiful, fazly, azrul, & helmi. They always RAWK my day!!!! Anyways working life is not that bad ;) Its better to slave down yourself with tones of work than sitting down at one corner and do a pathetic circle. You asked me what went wrong, I smiled and said nothing, when you turned around, a tear came down and I whispered to myself, everything is... :'(

Allergy

Suffered a major prawn allergy reaction just now... and let's just say it wasn't one of the best experiences one would want to have.

I've always had a mild allergy to prawns, and the resultant effect of a quick taste ranges from swollen lips, even more swollen lips, and some itchy esophagus (fucking uncomfortable). But circumstances were a little more fuddled today as i was having sore throat + cough + flu (the type with horrendous green cendol-like snot and mucus) so i took a Mucinex expectorant to help clear the incredibly viscous nasal goo.

Now due to my sore throat and general discomfort within my oral orifice i let me guard down and polished off a plate of mum's incredibly delicious prawns. Polished as in sitting the scrumptious prawns in my mouth and allowing the fantastic taste envelop my tastebuds.. Ahhh~!

And once i'd finished i knew something was off, as my throat started feeling strange and itchy and i lost my voice. After a few moments i could feel a part of my throat swollen and whenever i gulped or swallowed anything there was some serious chafing against the back of my throat.

AND the expectorant chose that precise moment to kick into effect, sending my coughing reflexes into overdrive to expel phlegm. I couldn't swallow without some major friction, and my chest was heaving from my attempts to suppress my cough, and that was torture.

Each raspy cough sent spasms of pain to my lungs, which led to more coughing, and consequently more pain and it was all i could do to stop the coughs. 

Mum was stunned and she flew us over to Dr Teh at Uptown, as it was the nearest practice she knew. I walked into the clinic, wheezing like mad and startling this patient who was paying for her prescription. 

So now, i'm back home after popping some anti-histamines, steroid pills and inhaling a bunch of steroids. My throat is raw from the chafing, but am feeling a whole lot better now. Nose is clear, chest no longer throbbing. I have with me a prescription of throat spray, a Turbohaler, some anti-histamines and more steroids. Life is good, huh.

All in all quite a new experience, albeit a bad one. But at least i know what to expect next time. Am thankful,and lucky to have survived. A tad dramatic but at least my allergy was a mild one. According to Dr T, severely allergic patients could have their entire face swell up like a bee hive, trachea closed up and boom! You're dead..

P.S. Never touch prawns ever again.

T_T

Have come to sinking realization that i am now, more than ever, stupid. 

OK la not to say completely retarded, but I am mortified to find out that i flunked the IBM aptitude test. I failed an aptitude test. And a relatively un-brain-teasing one at that. MCB!

Y'see the test has 3 parts A matrix B number sequence and C maths problems. A was an unmitigated disaster as I couldn't picture the shifting of numbers and symbols within a 5x5 bingo matrix. Imagine changing all # symbols into B, and reversing rows and columns and i saw nothing but stars. AND they didn't let us conteng their question paper.

Then again i suspect it is also a hidden indirect test of split-second adaptability, like when the going gets tough, the tough fucks the rules and contengs on the question paper. Damn, i'm an idiot.

B number sequence was piece of deliciously iced cupcake.

Now C is where the stupidity comes in. It's been frickin years since i last used algebras and fractions and what not so didn't know which to use to solve the damn problems.

Sigh.

Anyway i have got another interview tomorrow with Unilever. Hopefully i don't screw it up.

Kosong

Gambar hiasan. Setiap pagi alarm bunyi. Snooze 3x. Macam biasa, the third time baru aku matikan. Dengan mata separuh bukak. Nampak ada msg. Teruja. Nampak sgt da lame tade org msg kau. Baca. Senyum. Aku rindu dia. Tak sangka dia ada masa nak msg kawan lama yang hodoh ni. Mandi. Sarung baju. Siap-siap. 8.15am baru gerak. Teringat masa first day pukul 7am dah kuar rumah. Makin lama makin lambat kau pegi keje. Tapi so far benchmark pukul 9pg punch card ta pernah tersasar. Bangga sekejap. Masuk ofis terus telefon org kelantan lagi untuk follow up. Ada 1 kerabat ni gatal yang amat. Ta kesahla kau tengku ke raja ke apa, kalau bukan sebab keje ta ingin aku na kol kau in the first place. Sumpah mual. Siapkan proposal taiwan. Shashi puji. Lega, ta sia2 ta tdo semalaman. Round applause untuk diri sendiri. Call director Hello On Two mintak slot. Translate eng document lagi. Aku dah macam walking dictionary kat sini. Pegi lunch. Sumenye smoking. Pening. Satu meja 5 org laki smoke, aku tukang sedut asap je. Ini kalau aku kne kanser paru-paru memang aku saman sekoq2. Oke mamat tu sume da menyampah dengar aku berleter. Diam. Balas msg pagi td. Die reply laju. Senyum. Ta sangka die ader international prepaid. Masuk keje balik. Fazly asyik kacau aku buat keje. Pastu abg faizul tease die "tangan tu jauh sikit fazly, tangan tu jauh sikit.." Khairul pulak ckp, "fazly kalau dah jumpa pompuan, ta ingat kawan". Mengeluh sekejap. Dari dulu aku kalau kawan ngan laki single mesti kne bahan gosip liar. Dari zaman sekolah. Cukup lali. Tadi kitorg download lagu ana rafalli. Dan-dan semangat AJL. Dasyat arr company ni, 4shared pon die filtered, si fazly ni ajar aku camne na bkk. Banyak step. Malas. Tapi sumpah internet sini laju. Download movie pon aku rasa masak megi lagi lama.Mmg terbaik. Tapi step untuk access filtered web ni yang leceh. jadi malas. Aku dapat cuti esok. Jumpa advisor research. Ingat merdeka. Tiba before balik dapat lagi 1 projek. MEMANG DENGKI TAU DIORANG NIH. Proposal starbucks nak bukak first drive thru outlet die kat Malaysia. Menarik bukan?? Tapi nak make the dreams come true, akulah yang azab. Tadi ader bekas intern datang melawat. Baru grad thn lepas. Die tgh tunggu kwn so ktorg borak jap. Die cite, untung kerja ngan berjaya ni, kalau keluar LAKU. Wallahualam aku harap betul lah kan. Die kate dulu pas abes intern kuar dari Berjaya je, 20 offer die dapat. Aku tanya die keje ape skrg. Die ckp Sales Manager kat GSC. Tumpang bangga wpun aku ta kenal die. Esok dato' masuk ofis. Dah 4 hari die kat Macau. Oke lega esok aku cuti. Tapi hari2 mendatang ni tadah telinga jela. Sumpah die kuat berleter. Shashi bagi aku 1 business proposal suruh tolong check kalau ade yg salah. Pelik aku, sapa exec skarang, die ke aku?? Kenapa aku yang kena check keja die?? Die kata proposal aku bagus. Aku rasa aku hentam je. Frankly speaking aku ta penah blaja buat proposal secara formal. Cuma masa form6 kita blaja buat bisnes proposal secara theory. Tahla, die insisted so aku bawak balik jela check kat ruma. Macam biasa dorg ajak aku lepak2 dulu before balik. Aku dah, wth korang ta penat ke???? Hari2 balik malam, ta paham aku mcmane dorg larat na lepak minum lagi. Aku kalau bole ta sabar na balik peluk pingu & katil. Dorg bole bersosial lagi.. Fazly kate sume org da start suke aku. Yela sebab aku buat keje macam org tade life. Siang malam, 7 hari seminggu. Aku cakap aku mmg tade life. Kerja tulah hidup aku. Dato' offer gaji basic 3k kalau aku dpt absorb afta internship. Dalam dilema aku termenung panjang...... Inilah yang aku na selama ni, keje bagus, gaji banyak,rumah, kereta, shopping... Aku ada semua... tapi kenapa jauh didalam aku rasa kosong...

Nota kaki : Na pegi nangis kat bucu katil sorang2...

What goes around, comes around...

Hot news of the week, Nabil was dumped by Lofa. A glance info, Nabil is my old fren. I knew him since he was nobody. We were quite close back then because he dated my gff, Aimi for 4 years. After high school, he broaden his career and got fame from day to day. He dumped my gff. I think most of the commercial break or advertisment in Malaysia used his cute face. Yes, he is the popular Malaysia model. I hate him to the core at that point of time until to the stage where i change to other station whenever his face appears on tv. But i surrender when he appears exactly in everything from digi, pizza hut, vitagen, twisties, petronas, long lists... I just cant believe wut had he done to my beautiful gff, Aimi. He crushed her heart into brittles. Just bcos of that biyotch. I know Nabil is a very nice guy.. Last time, whenever we lepak makan or muvie nabil mesti akan pegi surau solat when the time comes, i dunno how on earth he can fall into that biyotch. Today remarks everything, Lofa dumped him exactly after she won the Dewi Remaja 2010 Title. I guess what goes around comes around.... I dont blame Nabil, we are still friends... Im glad that he finally realizes yang mana kaca yang mana permata. I have gone through this bullshit for soo many times, but its pathetic to see there are still people out there who still take things for granted and have the heart to hurt others. But no worries, buat baik dibalas baik. Buat jahat tuhan sajalah yang balas. Tuhan itu Maha Adil. AMIN.

Nota kaki:Today Nabil tweets, "I rather date a not so good looking girl with a beautiful heart than a beautiful girl who have a dark heart." Yeah, Gimme 10 BRO!!!

Sweet

Cow, Brown Bear, Xtine, Dinghy, Nico and I traipsed over to Vid Malley today to meet Miss Moon. I am a tad indignant as I've previously asked for a meet up with the former 5, and their schedules seemed to magically clash. Now they can miraculously get together for the madame.. sigh, such injustice.

We saw Angelina Jolie (womb / vagina of the world)'s The Tourist and... barf! That's all it deserves. OK and maybe some mention of the beautiful scenery.

Next stop was some dessert sampling at Delicious.

Dessert at Delicious is fantastic. I hate that i'm attracted to its dessert display cooler, peering at it like a kid at a candy store.

We shared:

• Apple Blackberry Crumble
• Walnut Brownie with Chocolate Sauce
• Scones with Clotted Cream and fruit preserve
• Macadamia Cheesecake with caramel and macadamia brittle

The first two came a la mode and were excellent as uzh, especially the brownie, oh my...

Scones sucked bad as they replaced their fluffy cream with packaged clotted cream (y'know like the foil-sealed individual-packed butter used by airlines?) that has lost its molecular integrity during the course of shipment and resembled yellow crumbly butter all stuck to the bottom of the container. Nasty..

Macadamia cheesecake certainly looked magnificent as i was goggling at it once i came in. Macadamia brittle!! Divine. I love nuts, and nut brittle. But the cheesecake base had a slightly salty tinge that i didn't like.

Oh and the manager was kind enough to serve us a basket of complimentary fries with some sorta creamy dip. Delicious indeed. :)

Minggu Pertama...

Dear diary, internship has been really tiring.... But it has been a real fun as i learn A LOT, read my lips ALOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTT!! The workloads does not broad to specific subject, yet it involves many different sector because of their countless baby business. Refer to the second picture to see their business. To accomplished the tasks given, i had to gain knowledge and read a lot because they assumed me to know EVERYTHING. It does not close to double or triple degree, but the scope of job required me to like having 10 degrees when my background is completely majoring in Event Management only.

Somehow i have this handsome people around to keep me going. HAHA they have been a real help, since im the only girl in the office i was treated like a baby sister most of the time. Nobody dare to bully fragile me. And i have the veto power to decide where we were having lunch everyday. But basically thou im a girl, i was appointed as the company PR because among the boys i am the only one who have the public relation background. Therefore i go out more often then the boys. The boys stay at the office most of the time doing accounts, finance & admins or involve in Berjaya Land for construction. I did take this PR subject back then, but to be a PR practitioner, trust me its not an easy task...

Well my first week was Phewww!!! *speechless. But the only best part is i got discount and subsidized whenever i want to eat in any Berjaya F&B. (kenny rogers, papa johns, wendy, krispy kreme, starbucks, rasa utara, etc) Heaven kan!!!! Pasal makan, hidup je kau!! Besides the monthly allowances, i get the travel claim-age, and topup claim every month. The pathetic part is, company kasi topup, kredit dah banyak tapi kau tatau na kol sape... sob sob.. Recap

Day 2: Pagi aku buat proposal pengecualian cukai untuk table buyer Majlis Santapan Malam Sempena Pelancaran Yayasan Kelantan. Then tghri lunch kat Keepsi, teringat dulu kalau ta abes makan, hasrul & hafiz slalu kne paksa ngan aku... skrg fazly, saiful & azrul yg kne jadi tong sampah. have to mention aku hari2 lunch dgn diorang ni. Diorang intern jugak, kwn aku kat sini, sume budak UiTM tapi kos laen2. Petang ikut PR exec, Encik taufiq pegi MPAJ. Blaja camna na jumpa org. Kes company kena saman 11k, nego2 skit turun terus ke RM500. Bukan rasuah ye, tapi ini namanya PR practices. Sumpah Pengarah MPAJ ni muda & hensem gila!!!! Die bg nasihat kalau pas abes internship tana keje ngan Berjaya, try la Bank Rakyat sane bonus 9 bulan. Skrg ramai org keje Petronas lari msk Bank rakyat. Siap bagi aku tips, die kate Bank Rakyat tu islamik sket so kalo g interview nnt pakai baju kurung tudung pin depan, kne jadi makcik baru dorg amek!! HAHA terkekek aku gelak kat situ. Disebabkan die hensem, aku na dengar la ckp die. HEHE. Seyes envy die, muda2 lagi dah jadi BOS BESAR kat MPAJ tu. Pastu pg pejabat tanah, sebab kita nak pajak dewan LJT so that sesapa yg sewa dewan tu kena hire us as event consultant. Oke seriyus kejam, aku diberi pendedahan sehari je untuk blaja, esoknya disuruh settle projek FRIM sendiri

Day 3: Sambung buat proposal pengecualian cukai & kena translate banyak dokumen syarikat dari eng ke bm sebab na send kat gomen. Sumpah upside down otak aku. Kalau suruh translate eng, aku oke, tapi ble suh translate bm sumpah dungu. Eng aku tadela terer sgt tapi sepanjang hidup aku ta penah dpt English, B. and aku ta penah dapat BM, A. SPM pon BM aku dpt B and Eng aku dpt A. Pelik tapi benar. Oke yang paling kejam arini, baru hari ketiga bekerja aku da disuruh settle projek SORANG2. Pegi FRIM and dapatkan tender cafe. Sumpah satu malam aku ta tdo mlm sebelumnya sebab takut yang amat. Diulangi dato' suruh aku pegi sorang2 handle benda ni. GILA. aku baru 3 hari kot masuk company ni. So lepas segala siasatan dijalankan, FRIM bukanlah pemilik cafe tersebut and tade kepentingan pon sbb kafe tu hak milik sepenuhnya CEO sebuah company. Solution taley kaco. Projek settle.

Day 4: Arini aku kne kol sume AJK Yayasan Kelantan untuk follow-up. Memandangkan event ni involve sultan & kerabat so banyak pihak istana yang terlibat. Dari ketua istiadat, datuk pengelola istana, s/u sulit tengku mahkota .. haizz sumela... Sorang2 aku kol... Macam2 ragam.. Sumpah aku kalo loghat kelantan ni mmg FAILED. Jadi byk misscommunication disitu. Kalo PA pompuan biasanya oke, dorg ckp bahasa melayu standard tp kalo PA lelaki angkat tepon Perghhhhh loghat kelantan pekat na mampus, sumpah aku ta paham!!!! Patutlah aku mmg ta penah berkenan ngan mamat kelantan.. haha... Arini paling lawak la ktorg p lunch kat mamak. Dorg kata NGK kat sini sedap. Aku, fazly, & azrul mkn NGK. Saiful mkn megi goreng. Mamak ni pon kiralah pastu selit kertas. Pastu fazly ckp nape aku punya mhl sgt sampai rm7 padahal die order lg mcm2 dengan telor dadar n papadom nye lg tapi die punya bil lagi murah dari aku. So azrul pon panggil ane tu. Berapi la fazly berhujah kat ane tu nape aku punya mahal sgt.... Yela budak finance kan.. Pastu ane tu amek kertas fazly n tambah lg rm1 pastu ane kate sory die slh kira fazly punye bkn aku punya. die lupa na kira telur & papadom fazly sbb tu pelik fazly punye lg murah dr aku yg order nasi sesaje ni. Muka sentap je fazly. HAHAHA aku ngan saiful da gelak guling2... Fazly: "i na tlg u, i plak yg kne tmbh bil????? DEM!!" Hahaha sumpah lawak!!

Day 5: Dato' pegi Macau 3 hari... Best, tade org na membebel!!!! Arini kol RTM sbb bos aku na masuk slot rancangan Hello on 2 untuk promote Berjaya Founders Day yg kitorg akan buat kat Cosmo World, Times Square Febuari nnt. . Pastu buat proposal memohon sumbangan dana untuk pembinaan Universiti al-Azhar. Ini lagi 1 keje GILA. Diorg na suh aku cari USD10 juta. Buat proposal anta surat kat sume badan swasta & korporat mintak sumbangan sbb universiti ni wakaf. Owh yarh sedikit info, Universiti Al-Azhar dekat Malaysia ni cwgn pertama yg dibuka di luar Mesir. Diorg na bukak kat Negri Sembilan. Agak serabut jugakla pk psl projek ni, tp tapela nnt bile da tua da jadi nenek bole cite kat cucu-cucu.... dulu, nenekla yg buat proposal pembinaan Universiti Al-Azhar utk dibuka kat Msia tu. Hari ni BOD ade meeting.. lama gile, kul 8mlm pon ta abes2 lg... kekdahnya kalo bos ta blk, ta kan kau na berlesup balik kan... So ktorg duk main telepon. Kenekan azrul yg time tu tgh keje kat bilik lain. Jahat gila la Helmi menyamar jadi client. Si azrul ni bodo2 je jawab sume soalan. Pastu fazly plak kenekan azrul. Si Azrul ni pon bole ta pasan suara fazly. Tapi paling lawak semalam la, Azrul pg curi tulang hisap rokok kat tangga. Pastu Khairul, telepon hp die menyamar jadi Dato' yang tengah marah2. Berpeluh-peluh Azrul lari masuk ofis bwk fail. Mana die kutip fail tu pon aku tataula.. Hahaha sumpah lawak, suma kepala da masuk air longkang yang ade keladak hijau tu. Hijau tape jgn kuning. HEHE

Day 6: Hari ni sabtu tapi kne keje jugak... kata half day tp kul 4 baru kasi ktorg blk :( Nasib bek bos banje mkn Kenny Rogers lunch tadi. Si saiful kul 3 da cabut sbb ade date ngan gurlfren die. Azrul pon sama ta sabar na balik jumpa bini. So tinggal aku ngan fazly yg kne buat 5S. Then pas balik ktorg jalan2 kat Times Square jap, fazly teman aku cari port murah tuk parking next week... Fazly ajak aku jalan2 sbb die tau aku stress, proposal pengecualian cukai ta abes lagi, Shashi da kol suh buat satu proposal baru. Dato' na tgk isnin. Meroyan la aku kne bawak balik keje type kat ruma. By the time im typing this its already Sunday Morning. Sepanjang malam aku ta tido, menaip. Makin susah ble aku kne start membaca dari A-Z sbb ini bukan bidang aku & aku start dari zero. Proposal pasal permohonan utk dapatkan kuota import (AP) utk bwk hidupan akuatik dari Taiwan ke Malaysia. Ikutkan hati, senin nnt baru aku buat tp memikirkan tanggungjawab & aku dapat ELAUN utk sume ni, aku knela buat... ta kan na mkn gaji buta pulak kan. Lagipon tapela, aku kan tade life. Bila banyak keje ta sempat na teringat psl bende2 silam yang sungguh menyakitkan hati. Mungkin kesibukan adalah solusi yang terbaik buat masa ini :)

Nota Kaki: I HAVE NO WEEKEND. TQVM