... im bleeding and i feel like a fucked up piece of shit. i tend to be very harsh and inconsiderate at times like tis. i dont want to but i just cant help it *sigh*
people tends to get on my nerves on days like this. maybe its only me. i feel so wrong. it all felt so wrong. even when im right - im wrong.
had a late nite chatroom conversation with my ex colleague and current colleagues in msn. things went horribly wrong. boy, it was bad. i think i even offended some of them with my thoughts. i was brought up to speak my mind if i think its appropriate for me to say them out. and when you're at fault, just shut up, apologise and rectify your mistakes. well, maybe they are only theoretically feasible.
then i decided to seek solace from a very important person in my life but it turned out to be damn sucky too. maybe it's my fault from the beginning. i mixed every single inner thoughts up and got provoked at the wrong time. maybe its also wrong for me to put everyone together in my everyday life. at times, that messes up simple things. but i'll still hold strong to the phrase "the best things in life are shared".
yea... what the hell right. well, i dont know...
i guess this must be the time when everything goes wrong for me.
perseverance...
i'll remember...